Tough last few days
Right now it feels like the wind keeps on blowing against me all the time, R is sick and I feel like I have too much on my plate. The scale has been stuck on an even number and half a kilo and refuses go go below the magic number. REALLY need to do exercise but R doesnt even have the energy to stop the kids from fighting = no time for me to be alone. Feel bitter, sad and tired. I hope the winds will change soon for both of us....
Poor little J
Sitting on the sofa with J´s head on my lap. She is not feeling well. She has been coughing since friday, some evenings with fever and after I made her drink some honey/lemon water this morning she threw up. It wasnt even half a cup but apparently too much anyway. Since she sleeps decently we are thinking if we should take her to the doctor or not.
Absolutely exhausted
Today was the big baking day. We did lots of things, I think too many, for one day. Some came good and others no.
Now Im sticking to the sofa for the rest of the day, feels great to have my lovely husband home, he is wonderful.
Now Im sticking to the sofa for the rest of the day, feels great to have my lovely husband home, he is wonderful.
Uneventful week
A pretty uneventful week has passed. School, exercise, shopping, xmas curtains etc but nothing much to tell. Right now Im on the sofa, friday night, R working, kids in bed and I just poured some homemade "glögg" (mulled wine) on bottles. The kids' teachers will be getting a bag of swedish xmas delicacies for xmas this year. Come to think of it, will try to find some mulled wine history and write instructions how to heat and serve it. I hope they will appreciate it.
A friend and her two kids are coming over tomorrow, for "the big xmas baking event". It will be nice to have company, and xmas is all about having fun and creating traditions for your kids. We are both very happy to introduce our swedish xmas heritage to our kids.
A friend and her two kids are coming over tomorrow, for "the big xmas baking event". It will be nice to have company, and xmas is all about having fun and creating traditions for your kids. We are both very happy to introduce our swedish xmas heritage to our kids.
Some pics
Opening the biiig birthday present
At the party!
JP preparing the fishing game
J and her "team mate"
A fishing
Dancing
The cake
Missing my husband
Sitting here alone yet another evening. How I miss my husband!
Wonderfullest, best, cutest, loveliest 4 year old
Just about exactly 4 years ago I was in the delivery room, exhausted but with my little boy in my arms...He is so happy to be 4 years old! Despite the tough first time with colic and a never happy baby he turned into the best son you could ever ask for. He makes me proud each day and I love him more than I thought would be possible!
He slept like a rock this morning, me and J had to sing to him 5 times while shaking him a bit before he woke up :D The cupcakes were not so hard so I sent the Mickey Mouse ones and when I picked up a very happy and excited boy at school his teacher had made him a birthday crown that he was sooo proud of. Kids at school had sang for him TWICE he told me happily.
I hope I get to be here for many more birthdays!
He slept like a rock this morning, me and J had to sing to him 5 times while shaking him a bit before he woke up :D The cupcakes were not so hard so I sent the Mickey Mouse ones and when I picked up a very happy and excited boy at school his teacher had made him a birthday crown that he was sooo proud of. Kids at school had sang for him TWICE he told me happily.
I hope I get to be here for many more birthdays!
A taking photos :)
....daddy and J
Canadian husband
Canadian cousin with J
"aunt" D
himself
A
L and J
Found some pics...
Here are some pics from sunday lunch at parents in law
Dont mind R´s sad face...here is the birthday cake
Dont mind R´s sad face...here is the birthday cake
Alone
R left yesterday for his autumn simulator. Today he has the first session, second tomorrow and will be back on thursday afternoon. As always he was really nervous and worried but I think that is how he has to be to perform at his best. Kids are missing him a lot, A is counting the days until he comes back and J keeps asking for him all the time. Yesterday I had a crappy day, too tired to handle and couldnt get anything done. Today I have bettered mysef, did the shopping and also baked all afternoon. Was making cupcakes for A to take to school instead of a cake. I had ordered really cute muffincases with Mickey Mouse on but they must have been too big because the muffins took so long to be ready that they got a hard shell on top. Made some more in smaller cases and they were better but not enough to send to school so I ended up doing yet another load. Second round smaller muffins looked much better when they came out of the oven but then they sunk in and ended up with a hole. Will see if I even have enough to make 21 of the same kind for his class but I will wait until tomorrow to see which ones Im going to send, I brushed some water on the hard shell and hoping they wil soften up a bit over night.
Tomorrow I have a wonderful little 4 year old in my house <3
Tomorrow I have a wonderful little 4 year old in my house <3
Exhausted
Today has been a really long day, alarmclock set to take the kids to their grandparents, then up to Qawra to pick up the canadians and off to Ghajn Tuffieha where we had the photoshoot. The sun came and went but I think they got lots of nice pictures, thanks to a great photographer and relaxed "objects". I was really impressed with them, I would have laughed all the time, feeling sooo strange infront of the camera! Passed by home to pick up the cake I baked yesterday and off to the parents in law. There we had lunch and lots of talking even though there was a bit of a strange feeling since R´s sister E spent almost all the time crying. I dont know why, this time around we said we dont want to get in the middle but Im guessing things are not so good between her and her husband again. Im not even sure the cousin knows anything about how things are between those two so it must have been even more awkward for her. The day finished off with a trip to R´s brothers house to see how things are going there, they are moving in in about 6 months now :) There we got to see a lovely thunderstorm coming in over Malta, really cosy!
Now Im sitting exhausted on the sofa, wondering how early it is "ok" to go to bed.....
Now Im sitting exhausted on the sofa, wondering how early it is "ok" to go to bed.....
Forgot something important
Last Thursday R turned 30. My darling husband can finally stop teasing me for still being below 30 :D
Happy birthday my love!
Another blog
A friend of mine who lives in London blogs about her life with her son, check her out if you have some time to spare.
Finally home
It was so nice to wake up in my own bed! Kids did sleep without trouble in the same room last night but at some point had R (my husband) gone to get J, she was sobbing a bit and was totally confused standing on the floor in the middle of the room. (In this house it is the father that wakes up at night, I sleep like a rock!) As always A came in in the morning too, cosy! Today we have been food shopping (tomorrow is a public holiday and "everywhere" will be closed) and also gone for a swim in the afternoon. I also managed to fit in some exercise before dinner so today I can feel good about myself. This morning scale showed 1 more kilo down since before Sweden and that is like a miracle! I always gain weight when on holiday.
Right now R is reading for the kids, in maltese for the first time in a month. Tonight I think we will just be relaxed, maybe watch an episode of Bones and talk a bit about a possible job opportunity for R.
Right now R is reading for the kids, in maltese for the first time in a month. Tonight I think we will just be relaxed, maybe watch an episode of Bones and talk a bit about a possible job opportunity for R.
In english and who am I?
Im going to try to do this english part of my blog again, tried it before but found that I didnt have time, hoping for better luck this time around. Might try to translate a few of the last posts from this trip to sweden.
Apart from that, to get you up to date with me and to be able to jump into the blog here is a short resumé.
Im a Swedish national living in Malta with my maltese husband and two kids. A soon to be 4 year old son and a 2 year old daughter. My husband is a pilot and Im a full time mum, loving it! Im struggling with some 15 kilos extra weight since my pregnancies. Im coeliac and need to stay on a strict glutenfree diet. About one and a half years ago I was diagnosed with Autoimmune Hepatitis (AIH) which basically means that my immune system is attacking my liver and because of that Im taking steriods and azathioprine, both with rather bad and scary side affects. Steroids making me bloated and swollen apart from always hungry and azathioprine which increases the risks of cancer, specifically skin cancer which doesnt feel good at all considering I live under the buring Mediterranean sun. Since the diagnosis life has been up and down, I dont answer to the medication as the doctor expected and my liver results are still high. Mentally its very tough on me and some days I just feel like crying, thinking I wont see my kids grow up. The blog is mainly about my life, kids growing up, AIH and the stuggle to loose weight.
Apart from that, to get you up to date with me and to be able to jump into the blog here is a short resumé.
Im a Swedish national living in Malta with my maltese husband and two kids. A soon to be 4 year old son and a 2 year old daughter. My husband is a pilot and Im a full time mum, loving it! Im struggling with some 15 kilos extra weight since my pregnancies. Im coeliac and need to stay on a strict glutenfree diet. About one and a half years ago I was diagnosed with Autoimmune Hepatitis (AIH) which basically means that my immune system is attacking my liver and because of that Im taking steriods and azathioprine, both with rather bad and scary side affects. Steroids making me bloated and swollen apart from always hungry and azathioprine which increases the risks of cancer, specifically skin cancer which doesnt feel good at all considering I live under the buring Mediterranean sun. Since the diagnosis life has been up and down, I dont answer to the medication as the doctor expected and my liver results are still high. Mentally its very tough on me and some days I just feel like crying, thinking I wont see my kids grow up. The blog is mainly about my life, kids growing up, AIH and the stuggle to loose weight.
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