Right now it feels like the wind keeps on blowing against me all the time, R is sick and I feel like I have too much on my plate. The scale has been stuck on an even number and half a kilo and refuses go go below the magic number. REALLY need to do exercise but R doesnt even have the energy to stop the kids from fighting = no time for me to be alone. Feel bitter, sad and tired. I hope the winds will change soon for both of us....